Let's get something straight from the jump... this blog is going to be real and honest. I'm not telling anyone about this, except my wife. The reason I am doing it is the reason I think blogs are the best suited.... simple honest reflections on what we see, learn, encounter, experience. Too many people try to be prolific (like using big words like prolific) and try to sound enlightened and sometimes haughty even. This is none of that. Some people use them as wonderful marketing tools for either themselves or their business. Not that either. This is me being real with me and God. If you're reading this, then maybe you can glean something from my struggle in this journey. And it IS a struggle. But anyway, wanted to clear that up before I started. I am not a philosopher. I am not an intellectual. I am not an Aflac representative. I am me. This will be as real as I can be. We get nowhere when we cover up honesty. And that is the point of this GETTING somewhere.... Here we go...
I actually started this late. I should have started when I started reading The Purpose Driven Life, but I really didn't think about it until today. I tried to summarize my Days 1-4, but there is too much that I can't summarize, so we'll just start at this point and move forward. But so far I can tell you this, it's hard for me to get out of my head. I keep thinking I need to DO something. And I feel like I need practical knowledge for every single detail of my life. I feel like if I mess one thing up, then I've taken one step forward then one back. You know, I actually felt the other day like Nicodemus, when he clearly didn't understand what Jesus meant we he said," You must be born again." I had that same distinct feeling. I still feel that way to an extent. Like Thomas wanting to see the scars on the Savior. I was born and raised in church, accepted Christ as a child, and now as an adult, I am having a hard time accepting who I am in Christ. Anyway, I want to be faithful and continue down this Purpose Driven road, even when I don't understand or know the conclusion. I pray that as I go, God will illuminate my next step. Just enough for one step God. That's all that I want. Show me one step....
